This is going to sound awful

but I don't care. Why is that whenever I feel like I am getting to some kind of even keel, something happens to blow it all away? Is it a punishment? Or just the beauty of life!?

Today I worked in the ward until 1pm and then had my practical exam at uni. It went ok I think, I don't know, will find out on the 4th August. I come home to B and her Carer advises that one of my cat's, Mimi, has been dopey all day and has black stuff around her mouth (she is white so black stuff is obvious!). I take one look at her and call the vet. To cut a long story short, she was sedated and examined and because she has a low immune system is susceptible to mouth ulcers. We know this so apparently she has two and the black stuff is blood. The issue is that there is another lump at the base of her tongue that is suspicious. It could be cancerous.

So she was sent home and has to go back in the morning. If the lump and the ulcers haven't responded to antibiotics she will have a biopsy under GA. If it is cancer, she cant have surgery because of where it is but will have to have chemo or radiography.

I love my cats. I feel like someone has let the plug out and punched me in the tummy (actually I have tummy pain, don't know why). My poor Mimi. She hates the vet and she hates me when I take her and she won't let me cuddle her. Now she is sitting dopey as anything with her head in food.

My white cat

Keeping everything crossed it is not cancer. Please.
and can there be an end to this benny hill day
Thanks