a peep into the future

Today on my placement I looked after a young girl who had developed sudden leg weakness and needle like pains in her feet and hands. It was discovered she had a peripheral neuropathy. Hers can be treated. My B's cant. What I glimpsed was a view into my daughters future as this is what she has to come and it scared me.

Pain at touch of the feet and legs, not being able to bear clothes and super sensitive. Shooting pains like needles. Not being able to weight bear at all. This is all coming for her. It is not me being pessimistic, this is me being realistic. The tingling in her feet has already started, she is sensitive to temperature especially water. Yes I cling to hope that the little known about her condition will be wrong, yes I do, but I see the changes and I am learning more about the brain and the nervous system and in my heart I know its not wrong. I am glad it slow progressing because it has allowed her to adapt more easily to the changes. I just don't want her to be in pain.

Today she tells me she has been having headaches this week and feeling sick but has not told anyone. The problem with working on a neurology ward is you just know too much sometimes.
At least now its over and perhaps I can have a bit of head in sand again for a while.