A walk in the woods

Sometimes we go for a walk in our local woods at Horsell Common. Whatever time of the year you are guaranteed to see lots of different breeds of dogs which is one of the reasons we go because Beth loves them (and secretly so do I!). This one decided to disobey his owners shout and come say hello

and there are guaranteed to always be some playing in the pond. These two having fun whilst their younger sibling, out of picture, looked for the ball.

and then on our travel's we noticed Eoyore's house

and how B laughed when pushed over the masses of pine cones.

A nice morning.

I so love my child

I love her when she is grumpy, I love her when she is sad or ill and it breaks my heart, I love her when she sings out of tune and when I come home from work and find a big poster of Troy from High School Musical on the outside of her bedroom door..I love her sense of humour because she knows how I feel about him (ugh!). I love that she needs me when she wakes up feeling ucky, and when she doesn't need me and tells me to go away. I love her when I paint her nails with black nail varnish (!) and decide we both would look good with the hot pink she had chosen for her toe-nails.
I love her giggles when I am trying to get her to bed although I wish she wouldn't cos it makes transferring really hard!
I love that she knows the word "diluted" all of a sudden.
I love that she still gets melon and lemon the wrong way round.
I love that she gets so visibly excited about spending time with people she loves.
I love her determination and strength.

I love her.

This is going to sound awful

but I don't care. Why is that whenever I feel like I am getting to some kind of even keel, something happens to blow it all away? Is it a punishment? Or just the beauty of life!?

Today I worked in the ward until 1pm and then had my practical exam at uni. It went ok I think, I don't know, will find out on the 4th August. I come home to B and her Carer advises that one of my cat's, Mimi, has been dopey all day and has black stuff around her mouth (she is white so black stuff is obvious!). I take one look at her and call the vet. To cut a long story short, she was sedated and examined and because she has a low immune system is susceptible to mouth ulcers. We know this so apparently she has two and the black stuff is blood. The issue is that there is another lump at the base of her tongue that is suspicious. It could be cancerous.

So she was sent home and has to go back in the morning. If the lump and the ulcers haven't responded to antibiotics she will have a biopsy under GA. If it is cancer, she cant have surgery because of where it is but will have to have chemo or radiography.

I love my cats. I feel like someone has let the plug out and punched me in the tummy (actually I have tummy pain, don't know why). My poor Mimi. She hates the vet and she hates me when I take her and she won't let me cuddle her. Now she is sitting dopey as anything with her head in food.

My white cat

Keeping everything crossed it is not cancer. Please.
and can there be an end to this benny hill day
Thanks

Mmm

Just reading this page, I have come to the conclusion I cry too much

Sorry!

End of Term

Mixed emotions. End of an era for B. In September, she is moving boarding house, class and therapists, first time in 3 years. Today was end of year prizegiving, I didn't know if she was receiving anything or not. Well she did. She got this:





and this:

and a HSM watch (we really can't get away from that...ok, I can't) and a woollies voucher.

She cried alot when it finished. She is going to find the transition hard I think. She cried, I cried and then one of the other little girls cried. So toilet roll all round. She will be fine, she will be fine, she will be fine!

7 weeks off now for B. Mmmmm

So near!

Ok, surprisingly I did better than I thought in my mock. I only failed one piece and that was for not writing RPM after my respiratory rate I counted - a minor thing. Apart from that I PASSED EVERYTHING!!

Here's hoping thursday it goes as well......the actual exam.

Finished my assignment today, finally, just need to tidy up the references and get Martijn to make sure it reads ok. And am busy trying to revise the nervous system and ears etc for my written exam next tuesday.

I can't wait til tuesday 10am. END OF TERM! END OF FIRST YEAR! TIME OFF! YEAH!

How not to start a practical exam

Ok, all day waiting for my formative OCSE at University - which basically is a mock practical. 3 stations - 5 minutes each, one for Temperature, Pulse and Respirations, one for fitting a hoist sling and one for doing recovery position. Ok it may sound easy but let me tell you IT ISN'T! You have to meet six criteria for each and there is alot of communication needed and remembering what to do. And the people you do it on are members of the public and there is an examiner in each cubicle.

So by 14.35 when mine was, I was feeling quite shaky with nerves. Standing outside the first cubicle, one of the lecturers saw my face and said you will be fine Robyn to which I burst into tears! DO NOT SPEAK TO ME PLEASE! The whistle blew and I had to start.

BUT.....

my crying had dislodged one of my contact lenses. So I then had to fit a hoist sling to Joe* whilst only being able to see out of one eye and vision blurred on the other. Great.

By the end of that five minutes, miraculously I managed to remember everything and even able to adjust my eyes to squidge that lens back into place when I sat down. Joe* whilst out of character said he got married with one contact lens so what I went through was easy. Thanks.

So after the other two stations which I think I did ok, it was over. PHEW

Feedback tomorrow and then actual exam on Thursday...If I don't pass I get three other tries. But in my holidays AND I WANT A BREAK!

fingies crossed.

This type of stress surely isn't good for you as you get older. Is it?

*Aka Joe Bloggs